Unbridled JOY!

It is my honor and unique privilege to officially shout from the rooftops that my insurance has APPROVED and AGREED to pay for my spinal fusion surgery!!!  It's been a year and a half since the accident and seven months since I've been out of work this second time…basically- this has been a long time coming.  It is what we have prayed for, wished and hoped, cried and bawled over….It is what I have longed for every moment of every day and even had me in the worst depression of my life because of being denied the treatment.  And now- *sigh*- it's here!

Do you know what it's like to be so joyful that there are no words?  That's how I feel! I feel like simply falling on my face before God and crying out in thanksgiving.  I feel at peace. I feel in awe. I feel so LOVED!  I truly believe this is an example of God's perfect timing.  If my surgery had happened even as early as a month ago, I would not be plugged into an awesome church that I now have people that will pray for me and help me with things that I need.  If it happened right when I went out of work, I would have never gotten to know Mary Kay and all the wonderful women who have brought me to a place of happiness and goal-oriented enthusiasm!  If it happened before this summer, I would have never gotten into a bible study that brought me back to the heart of the Lord.  Now- it is time.  I am more spiritually and emotionally ready than I have ever been.  I'm a strong vessel for the Lord to use….

I cannot wait to be physically humbled by surgery because I know God has an INCREDIBLE plan for my downtime.  I was praying out loud today and I truly believe that He's going to show-off and do amazing things when I'm recovering.  I believe He is going to use me in ridiculous ways to glorify His name! I believe He is going to renew me in so many ways that will only strengthen my testimony and my love for Him….may He use my struggle to bring others to His kingdom! He is SO good!

There are too many people to thank for their support during this entire ordeal….so I will thank you all because if you are reading this, you have either thought about me, prayed for me, or supported me in some way, shape, or form.  NEVER underestimate the power of prayer!  That one little prayer you said for me 6 months ago MADE a difference! BELIEVE that!!! So thank you to the village for all you are…and thanks be to my heavenly Father who loves me and only wants the best for me!!

Let's get this surgery underway so God can continue to use me in wondrous ways!

(I was going to end the blog with that last sentence, but I felt it laid on my heart that many people reading this might not believe or agree what I'm saying when I give God all the credit for what is happening in my life.  If you are one of those people, I would love to talk to you about why I believe that.  I don't want to force my religion down your throat or judge you for your beliefs if they're different than mine, but I DO want to share with you how I KNOW that God is real and active in my life.  Please give me the honor of sharing that with you!)